tHe lasTest fashion trEnd

The lastest fashion trend is basically letting your draw string lie hanging in the air when you wear your uniform. Believe it or not, if your draw string accidentally drop out, you would disgrace the school! And this offence is so much more serious than if u wear make up or jewelleries or have your skirt altered shorter than the pe pants or dye your hair! and if u were to be so unfortunate to get caught by the discipline master, he threatens that you cca will be barred from making announcements if you dun cut the string and tuck ur shirt in. *shrugs*

你要看就看！不看也罢！

看吧！
看一个消极的人编写积极的人生
看她多虚伪
看！她多悲哀。


看！她不怕你看
看吧！
看她多可笑
看一个害怕角落寻找勇敢广场

看她多狼狈
看！她多可悲
看一个失望的灵魂寻找希望的曙光
看吧！

看一个飘落的枯叶说她获得了自由
看她多愚昧
看吧！
看她多无知！

feVer

wasn't feeling well on my journey home so i told the saobaos... namely zhanting, peimin and serhwee. and they dun believe me, thinking that's it's my usually lamenting. And now i'm down with fever... 38.8 degrees. and no one showered my with love or at least show some concern, it just hurled hurtful scoldings from my stepmum. should i hope that it get better? i've still got tons and tons of homework not cleared and there's swimming lesson tml!!!

sigh

Have i fallen in a trance or something? why? people i thought i know... i know them no more. this feeling is kindda shitty. it's either i'm in a world of my own, or worse, some aliens are invading our world!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life Goes On...

This week has been rather tough for me and for my class too, probably, with all the assignments and work piling. Many had fell sick and attendance has dropped. We are not just tired phsically, but more so mentally. Depressed for the whole week, and has been throwing temper around, grumbling and grudging and badgering people to buy lu yuan's tickets. Sold five so far. Yes, and was so emotionally worned out i was secretly hoping that i will fall sick so that i don't have to go to school. Eventually, i really fell sick (cold, cough, sorethroat) but not sick enough to be absent from school.

And so... life goes on. woke up this morning to realise i've overslept and missed service 4. went for service 5 nevertheless. yup, With a little little bit of drugery i travelled from tampines to boon lay. but when i entered the audi, wow~ i could feel and vibe and the atmosphere. yah.. so i feel refreshed now, to carry on my battle for the rest of the week.

yah... and regarding all the laws and regulations that's mentioned in the old testament, i believe its purpose is to intill order in chaos. Because the isaelites are traveling to the promised land and the journey is long and ardous (about a few generations), if no proper rules and clear set of regulations are being implemented, the people are very likely to go astray. Order in Chaos.
that's what God put us to conquere. Discipline to conquere my pile of HOmEwOrK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tiRed

I have finally finished my seemingly interminable geography notes and now i have to move on to a higher level. READ them. What make things worse is that they are so disorganised, my geog teachers, to be specific. and now llb's student is trying to bombard me with silly questions regarding the bible just like how Jesus was bombarded by the pharises in the past. aRgg!! yes, and i'm brain dead now. Any attempt to try to weaver my faith would be in vain. May God bless the ignorant soul who believes she knows better when she obviously dun.

心理障碍

今天又有小说测验了！昨晚花了三小时温习，结果今天一个20分的题目我只写了一面半。哈。。。真兴奋，我又可以期待像上回一样惨不忍睹的测验成绩了～ 这是一种学生的无奈，可以及格我就该大事庆祝一番了。

现在实在是大不如前，以前我的文学测验怎么只求及格？！（若这样李老师还不把我宰了!)

虽说兵在精而不在多, 测验在质而不在量，我还是不会包着太大的希望。。。

讨厌。测验。

我只要及格！！！

_psYcoLogIcaL baRrieR_

Nowadays seems like no one's blogging. Too tired? haiz... everyone's so caught up with ccaS and rushing tutrials, revising tests, brainstorming projects, catching lectureS. Don't think i was ever this drained in ahs. No, i dun really commit to a CCA, but all the homework and tests are getting onto my nerves, piling up like nobody's business. StreSS! it keeps me drained but it gets me nowhere~ i lovE running away by sleepinG!!!! arG... wakE mE uP inSide!

比累还累。

我在这里要慎重宣布，高一的蜜月期已圆满结束。现在功课是比多还要多地排山倒海而来。很累！我算是蛮幸福的，既不用排戏，又没有参加什么别的课外活动。累！谢谢。我的牢骚发完了。

还有！那些还没买绿园的票的人，就可怜可怜我，帮我买几张吧！（我现在只卖出了一张票〕

绿园演出详情如下：
五月六日（星期五〕 或五月七日（星期六〕 量场都是 7.30 在 TJC Audi.
是“戏”超所值的。

本人联络号码乃： 94510176, 67861928. 请踊跃支持 ～

通讯录所产生的联想

我发现其实在我的MSN的通讯录里，十个人当中，有八个是我看到他们在网上也不会与他们交谈的，至于剩下的一个是只有在我需要问一些问题时才会聊一聊，或是他们见我可怜才敷衍我跟我聊天。至于最后的一个嘛，可以算是志同道合的朋友，但他们往往都会在我最想找他们聊天时不见人影。

我想是时候整理我的通讯录了。

其实一个人不需要通讯录上面的数字来肯定自己交游广阔，上面陌生的名子也不代表自己是个虚伪的, 没有安全感的人。只要偶尔正理一下心情，把多于的，应该删除的清理掉，会更自在。 不要太在意别人的眼光。 ；〕

令人心酸的故事。。。

这是一个真实的故事，一个看了令人心酸的故事，是我妈妈在与我闲聊的时候说给我听的。

曾经，一个年轻有为的小伙子，载着满腔的热忱和理想，希望能有出国留学的一天。他是父母的掌上明珠，也是家中唯一念完中学的男丁。或许因为封建的传统价值观，又或许是家 里的经济状况，他的父母并不站赞成他流洋。

这天，这小伙子实在压抑不了内心的 悸动，又再向他妈妈提起出国留学的事情。双方暴躁的脾气使得局面闹得很僵，谁也不肯让步。结果在一气之下，小伙子说了一句大逆不道的话： “。。。”

写到了这里，我实在不想再写下去了，因为，这个小伙子，他今天已不如从前，变了。。

如果你们想知道发生了什么事，可以亲自问我。

这个小伙子，他不是别人，他是我爸。。。

语特奖学金面试精彩花絮 2

其实我在这个面试过程中，我撒了谎。。。

问：你有看报纸吗？
答： 有。
问： 什么报刊？
答： 联合早报。
问： 一个星期几次？ 不是一个星期一次吧！
答： 差不多每天，只是偶尔没有看。 （很内疚，不过还好每天都有追新闻，所以还不至于被他们问到〕
问： 你都看些什么？
答： 看社论。
问： 不是看娱乐吗？
答： 我不追星的。（这是真的〕
问： 为什么喜欢看社论？
答： 它能让我知道世界各地在发生事。
问： 社论多数是报道怎样的新闻？
答： 政治吧。
问： 多数是写亚洲新闻还是写欧洲新闻？
答： 不一定，看当时什么事最轰动，伊拉克和美国打仗时当然追踪报道这两国新闻多，陈水扁枪击事件时就报道亚洲新闻。
问： 你比较喜欢看英文的社论还是华文的社论？
答： 华文。
问： 哪一个交容易消化？
答： 华文。因为看华文时我的思绪比较清晰，英文看得比较辛苦，有些词汇较深，所以华文比较容易消化。

哈哈。。。我觉得这个环节我的表现蛮逊色的。。。

语特奖学金面试精彩花絮

今天算是个意义非凡的一天吧。
一大清早我就挨了骂，因为我今天才通知他们我需要带我的护照去面试。电话中后母骂了，爸爸又打回来继续骂，结果我顶了嘴，哭着出门。
和韵涵一起去面试，我们在教育部看到很多华初的人，包过刘臻。
以下是几段有趣的面试过程，想与大家分享分享。

这是刘臻向我们叙述的他的朋友的面试经过：
问： 你为什么选读语特？
答： 没有为什么，因为凭我前三个月的分数要进华初，就得读语特。
问： 那你为什么来面试呢？
答： 我是来碰碰运气的， 拿到奖学金的话就多一千元，拿不到就拿不到咯。

结果不到三分钟他就出来了。

我对这人的评价： 他不屑的态度实在太可恶了！他剥夺了另一个热爱华文的人拿奖学金的机会！世上竟然有这种人的存在？？！！ 呜呼哀哉！

这是韵涵的面试过程，我只是凭记忆断断续续地叙述：
问： 为什么选读语特？
答： 因为我觉得我的华文程度还停留在中学的程度，所以选读语特是为了把华文搞好。

问： 你以后要重试什么行业？
答： 我要当医生和自由撰稿人。
问： 为什么想当自由撰稿人？
答： 因为我想把我生活中的点点滴滴写下来。（讲了一个触动她想当自由撰稿人的故事〕
问： 那你认识陈伟松吗？他是个知名的自由撰稿人。
答： 不认识。
问： 那你觉得投稿能够当饭吃吗？你知道投稿的稿费是多少吗？
答： 不知道。＄50吧。

问： 你有看报纸吗？
答： 有。
问： 都 看什么报章？
答： 联合早报。
问： 是天天看吗？
答： 一个星期一次。
问： 那你一年也只不过是看48次的报纸。

这是我隐约记得的内容，预知详情，请找韵涵。

轮到我的面试经过了：
问： 诗韵对吗？
答： 对。
问： 你中学是参加戏剧学会对吗？
答： 对。
问： 学会有什么活动呢？
答： 学会的活动主要是两年一度的公开演出，每隔一年也有校内演出，平时也会在一些节日时举办派对。
问： 那你演过戏吗？
答： 演过。中二时我是道具组长，中三时我饰演广告人，也负责校外演出的宣传，中四时我饰演许 纯美。
问： （笑〕 要不要演一段给我们看。
答： 如果你们不介意的话，我是可以现丑的。

问： 那你以后会不会朝着这条路走下去？
答： 不会。演戏只是我的一个小小的兴趣，一种娱乐，演了人家笑了就算了，它不是我要走的路。
问： 那你以后要做什么？
答： （慎重宣布〕 我要做老师。
问： 为什么要做老师？
答： 因为我在中学时有一位激发了我，让我对华文产生了浓厚的兴趣。我也要做一个像她一样的老师，激发学生，让他们喜欢华文。
问： 你的老师是幸运有你这样乖的学生，可是如果以后你被派到一间邻里学校，会遇到很讨厌华文的人，怎么办？
答： 我相信在座的你们也不能否认我的班上也有讨厌华文的学生，我也一定会遇到不喜欢华文的学生，但这条路是我选的，我就会坚持到底。
问： 你看起来像是一个很开朗的人，可是华文教学这条路不被重视，也有人指说越来越多人不喜欢华文，你不怕走这条路没有前途吗？
答： 我觉得行行出状元，每个人都可以在自己的领域中做出一番成就来。我选择走这条路，就不会因为在期间遇到一点挫折而放弃。如果遇到一点不如意就放弃，那华文就不能发扬光大了。就像如果当初五四作家没有坚持到底的话，我们现在就没有那么伟大的作品可以阅读了。
问： 你的父母是华文老师吗？
答： 不是。
问： 他们支持你做老师吗？
答： 支持。

预知更多内容，请看下回分解。：〕

poEm

我曾经
被失败与挫折蒙上了眼睛
前景的光明我看不清

我曾为
这理想坚持我是对
即使沉痛的代价压伤了我的背

我曾彷徨
我曾心碎
我曾疲惫
也曾欣慰
我曾自卑
我曾落泪

但我庆幸
我不曾后悔。

ThanK God!

结果，我明天就得去赴教育部的面试了！真的有点难以置信。
星期五，我碰到了澎老师，当时的我紧张极了。当澎老师说她在找我时，我的心差点儿跳了出来。我想这种雀跃是非笔墨所能形容的吧。与她一同走到办公室，我似乎从来没走过那么长的一段路，心里依然战战（克克〕x2，毕竟一开学我就被教育部耍了两次。从她的手中接过那张纸，我的欣慰和喜悦都写在了脸上，再清楚不过了。
我飞奔回班，就好象一个三岁的小孩得到一包糖果似的，兴奋地挥着自己的“战利品”。
还好不是一场欢喜一场空。：〕
感谢主！

别告诉我这是上天开的另一场玩笑！

心情有些忐忑不安，我怕老天闲我的生活太单调，决定再整我多一次。今天上完华文课后，蒋老师说澎老师要见我，好象是有关奖学金的事情。休息时有遇到蒋老师，她又说澎老师在找我。我找了澎老师三次都找不到她。。。 我担心蒋老师搞错了，也许她以为我是韵涵（他们总是叫错名〕。如果这是一场玩笑，我怕我的心会从一公斤升到十公斤。。。 请不要点燃我的希望，然后又狠狠地把它熄灭。我只是刚刚克服了第一次的失望。

你看！我有我的方向！

今天收到了教育部的来信，有点意外。起初以为也许大概有可能有机会拿奖学金，可是事实是残酷的，老天愚弄了我。等着我的只是一张帐单。-__-" 我是不是很势利呢? 但是我选读语言特选课程不是为了奖学金！只是奖学金能让我圆一个小小的出国梦。
我是有我的方向的！我要当华文老师！对，虽然说一路将会荆棘重重，也会有人把大桶大桶的冷水往我身上泼，我坚持我的志向！诗韵加油！

Love of a mOther

母亲的爱 汪国真

我们也爱母亲
却和母亲爱我们不一样
我们的爱是溪流
母亲的爱是海洋

芨芨草上的露珠
又圆又亮
那是太阳给予的光芒
四月的日子
半是烂漫 半是辉煌
那是春风走过的地方

我们的欢乐
是母亲脸上的微笑
我们的痛苦
是母亲眼里深深的忧伤
我们可以走得很远很远
却总也走不出母亲心灵的广场

Very touching poem. 是每个母亲和孩子的心情写照。

tImE LiNe

Out of boredom, i came to blog again. I believe every famous person in history has a timeline of his/her life's events constructed for him/her in his/her bio/autobiograpy. Forseeing th possibility of me becoming BIG in the near future, i hereby collate(from memories) and compile my very first timeline of my life's events!
__________ welcOme to My liFe____________

1988 Born in Mount Alvenia Hospital.
1992 Attended some ulu PAP Kindergarten
1994 Graduated from that kindergarten
1995 Enrolled into Bedok West Primary School
1996 Parents divorced.
1997 No major event i remembered
1998 Dad met my stepmum. Streamed into EM2 cos my English result didn't make the mark.
1999 Nothing special.
2000 Graduated from primary school/ Form teacher cried on my shoulder when i presented her a card/One of the few who initiated a teacher's day celebration for our beloved form teacher Mrs Tan/ Mrs Tan brought everyone a drumstick from Mac on children's day/ Shock
upon receiving my PSLE aggregate of 256.
2001 Enrolled into Anglican School/Joined Chinese Drama.
2002 Received Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour/Joined Student's Council/Props manager.
2003 Publicity Group/Actress/designed drama tee/Corrected Mr Chan that a period is not 360 degrees but 28 days/mum came to city havest for the 1st time.
2004 Honoured that Lee Laoshi became our Lit teacher/scored 89 for clit exam/invaded supervised self study/Passed "o" level with L1R5 9/get A1 for clit which by far is my
proudest achievement/ Graduated from AHS
2005 Enrolled into TJC for 1st 3 mths/ Not posted anywhere there after/ appealed and got in.

One chapter ended, another has just begun... May God bless my paths. :)

I didn't love mamA enough

This blog shall be dedicated to my dearest and bestest mama. Woke up this morning to realise that i have forgotten to eat the two chicken wings she bought yesterday night in an attempt to fill my stomach which she supposed was by then empty due to my late lunch/early dinner of 5 pm. I feel guilty already. It just dawn on me that the three syllabus i most frequently say to her isn't "I love you" but happens to be "I'm sorry". Apparently, apologsing has became my profession.

Agapae love. Sometimes i just wonder if i can love someone as much as my mum loves me. She forgives my clumsiness so readily. If people are still thinking that i'm a chinese freak, yes i admit i'm one, not superb, but well trained, and it all owe it to my mama. My mama gives me ting1 xie3 fortnightly, and mind you, it's not the ten words ting1 xie3, but 2 whole books of Chinese vocab. She's my motivation, and my inspiration.

I believe on many ocassions when i did stupid things out of impulse, the things i did, it pained her. Yet she still loves me even if I'm not flawless. And really, no one has invested so much time on me, be it nagging, persuding, advicing or simply joking (she does have a wracky sense of humour) and watching tv together with me. This is the bond i've never felt when i'm with my dad or stepmum. Nevertheless, they have shown their love in some other ways... Material wise maybe...

Yup, so all in all, We've really gotta treasure some of the most wonderful poeple God has placed in our lives. Express it outwardly, no matter how mushy it may be. Give your mum a hug today! (I'd have to do it the coming Saturday)

SlAcK...

Beening slacking and slacking. Really Really need to get into serious work when school starts.... argg....

gUest BloggEr

A round of applause for our guest of honour mr Zeetee Lim~ (hoooooOOO!!!)

Pre-blog declaration:

I, guest blogger, Lim Zhan Ting promises to blog sensationalistic materials regarding issues related to the promiscuous owner of this blog, Miss Lim Shiyun in the below paragraph. Although i forsee several impending volcanic eruptions due to Lim Shiyun's temperemental nature, i will not care.

After 3 months worth of close scrutiny and observation

I have one groundbreaking announcement to make,

which i hope will not deter human beings from coming into close contact with lim shiyun in future

with all honesty

i hereby announce that

lim shiyun

is

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saobao


hopefully, people reading this would have by now, realized that the previous 200 +- words they just read was rubbish.

thank you.

tEachers!

Here's a list of my favourite teachers, irregardless of RAnKing:

Ms Ow Siak wei
Mr ChaN wai Soen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ms Lee LiqUn
Ms WonG Ying Ying
Mr GarY Quek
Mdm Koh sWang chEng


yes~ great teachers with big hearts! have got this tendency of falling in love with teAchers. bewAre.