somtimes i wished i have had more time to blog, but when i did,
nv really quite know what to blog abt.

i need to improve on my emotional control.
PMS-ing badly.
arGgGgggG
and my blurness gets into my nerves.
and everybody else's nerves too i suppose.

how do i handle students in the future,
when i cant even get simple stuff done in the office.
counting all the zillion tons of mistakes which i've made.
haiz...
would have been better if the boss had hired someone who's more able.
sometimes i wished i'm someone whom others an rely on.
but looks like i'm relying on everyone,
and ever troubling them.

whatever.
bad mood.

这次好像糊涂得真的惹人生气了。。。

杀了我吧！！
direction translation from KILLＭＥPLS!!!

i made a zillion mistakes sinced stepping into the office.
cant stand myself,
shall sit myself soon.

yesterday:

1 ) title of claim typed wrongly.
2 ) cant find add of chew teng hui, in the end boss found.
3 ) emailed the quotation to the wrong terrance which i'm supposed to email to.
4 ) bank in slip typed wrongly $6846 and i typed $6848 and boss has to ask me to rectify my mistake.

kill me pls.
argggGggGgG... ...

where do u find another person who is this bluR and careless??　

当我还是个学生的时候，
就常常有这个念头：
我只是老师那么多学生中的其中一个，
但老师却是我的全部。

我要学着对每个学生公平
去看他们的优点
去学习包容他们的弱点。
把他们的名字记牢。
用他对我的尊敬去尊敬他。

haven updated for quite some time already.
was really busy with work and sleep, my daily routine.
still enjoying.
still loving what i'm doing. :)

yup, there was a series of unfortunate events taking place in the office.
spoiled the start button of the photocopying machine...
so have to use fax machine to photocopy.
then... the ink of fax machine ran low, so have to buy, 1 for $73. :X
THEN... the printer ink ran low....
just when boss was in the office....
yah, and he went. : "printer also dun have ink?"
heh...
and was pretty careless lah, made quite a lot of mistake.
BUT yes, i'm still surviving.
and i'm still learning.
boss and everyone are really nice.
they didn't scold me.
which made me even more guilty.
yah...
GOD, help me be more meticulous in my daily dealings.
give me the wisdom to handle my responsibilities and relationship.

点点滴滴 —— 第一章
（6/1/07）
今天将使我迈向教书生涯的第一天，
充满着期待。
以一个新人的心情和态度面对一切将要完成的任务。
本来以为
要跟小孩子打交道不是什么容易的事。
可是后来看到了他们的天真
他们的单纯
他们的直率
他们的可爱
觉得和他们在一起
比跟大人在一起还要能够坦然自在许多。

黄老师：“你们知不知道我姓什么？”（指了指自己套在脖子黄色“名”牌的绳子）
小朋友：（同声喊）“黄老师”！
黄老师：“那你们知不知道他（指向我）姓什么？
小朋友：“红老师！”

哈哈哈。。。

他们真的是可爱到~~~~~~

alone in the office. :)

Jan is a good month becos:
it's the beginning of a year and it makes me feel that i can start everything anew.
my birthday's in jan.
i get alot of financial blessings at this time of the year.
heh... and aunt always give me a big hongbao for my bdae cos she gets big fat bonus.
i start making new goals, new activities pouring in.
gets closer with family (yah... always happen ard this time)
can shop for new year's clothes cos CNY is coming.

hee... and teaching kids is so fun
becos they are soOooOoOoO adorable.
they are so innocent and impressionistic
and that makes me even more wary and particular of how i pronounce my words
and the words that i say.
cos they wun be able to catch me if i'm too fast or the vocab's too hard.

there's this cute little boy called jingjie.
he cried last last sat which was his 1st lesson of the year.
and he cried sliently, not distracting others. hahaha...
he has got beautiful big eyes.
long lashes.
and when he teared, he looked so pitiful.
the teacher gave him an ultraman sticker and asked me to bring him to wash up.
so i did.
and when honglaoshi saw him,
he carried him and say he must be as brave as ultra man.
SoOoOOoo cute.
went back to classroom and i held on to his tiny hand
to assure him ion case he cry again.
and last sat he didn't cry.
i observed him and he was so attentive during lessons.
really feel like giving him a hug~!
hahaha...
really loved working with kids!!!

i feel like a little princess these days.
not looks wise obviously, but treatment wise.

gave everything i had in my wallet today.
tot i'd be in lack for the following days.
But God is faithful and i was nv in lack
despite having no salary or savings to fall back on during the 1st mth from work.
dad and er yi gave 100 bucks for by birthday(in advance)
and mum gave 50 bucks last week.
looks like i'm always in need.
but nv lacking. :)


"On Chirst this solid rock we'll stand,
all other ground is sinking sand" -------- delirious?

Everything built on trust

since entering into my care-free working life,
i've heard alot abt workplace politics and the likes.
so i thought i'd have to protect myself becos everyone's evil.
everyone's fake.
choose what to trust and what not to.
people only want to take advantage of you.
and the adult work looks and sounds scary.

but i thank God because He must have been protecting me .
the ppl i interact and work with
are nice and friendly.
yes. like my collegue says: "did u realise? everything in this company is bulit on trust"
the fact that i do not have to tap card when i arrive for work or go home.
i don't have anyone to check on me whether i'm extending my own lunch hour.
(which of cos i dun)
i work at my own pace in the comfort of my own space.
and whenever i needed help,
there are so many sources and the people are ever willing to teach me more.
explaining everything to me step by step.
crack jokes and stuff.

yaR. everything's built on Trust.
i love my workplace. :)

blessed.

holding on to a 2mth temp job.
admin at ubi where dad can fetch me to and from work cos he works nearby.
and the best thing is i can meet mum during lunch cos she lives nearby.
and mummy cooks for me everyday!
yummy delicious healthy meals.
so now i save on my lunch money and my transport fees!!!
somehow God must have played a part amist all these arrangements.:)
Thank You.

and the trick is...
c'mon, it's really hard to get hired as admin when one dun even know excel and has no experience in admin work (though i always do admin for my dad in e past)
and the collegue is willing to take me and let me learn.
it's not too busy, i can still have time to surf net and take calls sometimes.

i've learnt a whole lot of brand new things.
now i'm more proficient in MS excel
and it's really so very convenient for tables.
to think that i've wasted so much precious time drawing tables with Words in the past
now i know how to merge and format cells,
adjust column length etc.
and how to make purchase orders,
write quotations,
take calls,
write cheques and do bank in slips.
keep track of invoices,
draw shedules with excel
fax
etc etc etc.
and the pay is not bad, 5/hr in the comfort of air con room, office hour.
time and space for me to pick things up.
it's a painting company by the way.
heh heh... for now i'm the temp admin of Regal Painting!
thanks swee Fan and Siyan for the lobang~

Besides that, i'm also working at baliguo on Sats.
telling stories to K1 kids!!
and it's something i so enjoy doing cos it's also teaching,
learning how to teach, gaining experience.
and it's a chinese environment!! teach chinese only~
baliguo also offered me a permenant job but i turned down.. for various reasons.
but i still thank God i get to teach on weekends!
and honglaoshi called and told me he's giving me another P1 slots and
wants me to learn from the lecturer (which i think he intends to give me a slot as a lecturer)
basically it works like this,
there's a "lecturer"(主讲老师) and a 助教 in a class of about 7-13 students(sometimes kids) so assistant teacher will not teach but help out and in charge of story telling~
actually i think kids who went for classes there would really enjoy chinese lessons
cos it's taught in such interesting and interactive manner where teachers can try to meet the needs of the diff students.
yes so fun!! and good pay too $20 for a 1 hr 45mins lesson for 助教 and $40 for 主讲.
and i want to thank llb for recommanding me the job (recommanding the job me actually, in Dec. thanks alot!)

besides that, i'm taking on 3 tutions coming Febuary.
Standing in for my sister's fren as she's away for attachment in Disneyland UK.

i thank God for the sources of financial inflows~
whew! i thought it'd be really hard looking for jobs cos the first week i was so disappointed
after calling up 10+ schools putting my name down for relief teachings, sending in a resume for admin, applying at 2 shops as sales assisstence, signing up at job agency and apply at a student care centre. and no one called me up.
but God is faithful
and in days, jobs start flowing in from differnt sources. haha...

oh and daddy sign me up for driving.
heh heh... he say he'll find someone good to be my instructor so i can pass after 1 test.
i figure having the relations helps
both in getting good jobs and
in getting a good instructor.

i am so blessed~

i am so blessed! :)

对别人心软就等于对自己残忍

start where u are and use what u have. :)

爸爸妈妈都说我的人太直了
不懂得大人世界里的游戏规则
对小事太过执著
对大事太过马虎
对该问的事问得不够仔细清楚
不够得体大方
对不该问的事又问得太多。

在不该说会的时候
就口若悬河，滔滔不绝
在该说话的时候
就支支吾吾语无伦次。

唉！原来“释怀”和“圆滑”
是那么的知易行难。

我会慢慢学着顺其自然的。：）
在百力果上课真开心~！
现在上班也很开心。 ：））

"你这样做值得吗?"
---<金枝欲孽>

the hardest part about writing a script is the ending part.
really loved this show alot.
loved the ending.
though it's tragic,
yet in a way a happy ending.

父亲一生最大的遗憾
由儿子填补
——死在最心爱的女人身边

death isn't death alone.
it's regeneration.
what one could never fulfill in his lifetime,
gives strength and hope to the next generation.
to people around
who would, who could, who desire to
carry on his wishes.
and their own.

it's a wonderful show about life.
about rules that governs survival
about sacrifices and sarcrificing others.
about the happiest ending is always the most wonderful.
and neither tragic ending calls for grieving.

值不值得对问者是个疑惑
在选择不回答的人心中却早已有了答案

after all,
death isn't death alone.
it's regeneration.

both letting go and holding on
at the same time...

spent my first lunch of 2007 with aly ser and zt.
filling and delicious. :)

photos are not in order, in fact reversed order.

too lazy to re-adjust

the classic lzt's constipated pose

serphy's nice brown hair. :D

Does zt always have to look at pretty woman like that??

see what i mean?