Pa,

I thought I find the probing ridiculous, if you find things suspicious, you can talk to me in a nice polite manner and i can tell u what you want to know, not in a way that is insensitive and hurting: “ Don’t lie to me I tell you.”
well, if I did bother to lie, it means I am concern about your feelings, I dun want you ppl to get angry over trivial matters, and don’t want to let little things bother you.

This is my list of over the past week, u can call them up to check if u don’t believe
me.

21/2/2007, wed, went to Liling (90996910) baby full month gathering with Swee Fan (90461480) at Bedok Reservoir. And then after that went to watch Movie at Cathay Cineplex with Cherlynn (91251898) her boyfriend Desmond (97802453)
And my good friend Alyssa (96807849)

23/2/2007, Fri went out after work with Alyssa to Bedok Interchange for dinner, then buy Cherlynn’s birthday present for her birthday on Sat.

24/2/2007, Sat, Went straight to Esplanade after work to celebrate cherlynn’s birthday with Alyssa and Desmond til around 10 plus at night.

25/2/2007, Sun, Went out with Cherlynn and Cheryl( 98468768) to Orchard to shop and had dinner with Cherlynn.

27/2/2007, Tue, Went for dinner with Jocelin(93372587), Jennette (97584123), Munkiat (96318743), Junwen (91915014), all my church friends, thereafter went for prayer meeting at city harvest church in Jurong. Said i wa going out with friends ( which is true!) because u won’t like the idea of me going to church on weekdays.

And yes, mum brings lunch for me during lunch hour and that is all. Full stop. And anyway she is not in Singapore since I started work last Thursday, she was only back on Tues, but I didn’t have lunch with her, instead I had lunch with Jeanette (my church friend and ex-sch mate) whose workplace is in Ubi, near me. She brought lunch for me to eat with my friend, and that explains why I brought back a box of suspicious looking unfinished rice to wash to return her so that she can bring me lunch the next day.

And I only see mum for 1 hour everyday which is during lunch time. And every Sat I work my day away from 1245pm – 630pm at the tuition centre in Hougang and only gets to go Ubi to eat dinner. Sometimes not even dinner when there are other activities (such as friend’s birthday, watch drama plays etc) on Sat.

Yes, I save on my lunch. And I only get to see her for 1hr x 5days plus 4 hours on Sat which when total up dun even amount to 1 day. I sincerely believe that Er Yi and you are understandingabout this matter, After all, my work ends next Friday and no more lunch time with her. All the past grieve and failed relationships are a matter of u adults, don’t jumble personal feelings and bring unnecessary stress to your kids, distrusting them in everything they do. Anyway, I see no difference or inconvenience caused in throwing the unfinished food at home, or else where when makes that sentence, :” Don’t throw food (that she brings) at home.” unjustified.

Love,
Your Very Disappointed-in-your-distrust daughter

Dun understand why everyone's out to piss me recently. or maybe it's just me pms-ing.

{转帖}日剧和韩剧的区别
日剧：医生多 韩剧：病人多
日剧：bt多 韩剧：自恋多
日剧：悬念多 韩剧：眼泪多
日剧：王子多 韩剧：灰姑娘多
日剧男：修眉多 韩剧男：眼袋多
日剧女：气质多（90％是自然美女） 韩剧女：发嗲多（90％是整形美女）

日剧：对社会问题的思考多（未婚妈妈、师生恋、忘年恋、婚外恋），矛盾来自人的内心
韩剧：对遗传基因的研究多（同父异母、同母异父、同胞兄弟姐妹），矛盾来自外界（身世或疾病）

每次看日剧的时候，总是在主人公努力微笑着说加油的时候我却哭了
每次看韩剧的时候，总是在主人公哭得一塌糊涂的时候跟着一起哭

日剧多刻画草根阶层和小人物的生活，积极向上，教人抓住理想，奋勇前进，让你猜不到结尾
韩剧多描绘童话中的公主和王子，白日做梦，哭哭啼啼，总是一开头就让你知道结尾

日剧是挖一个坑给你跳，你在坑里觉得很幸福
韩剧是挖一个坑给你跳，你在坑里觉得被骗了

日剧是出现问题解决问题
韩剧是没有问题制造问题

日剧有想再看一遍，再被感动一遍的冲动
韩剧是巴不得快点看完这一遍，看完就好

日剧一年出五部经典 韩剧五年出一部经典 　　

日剧看了一部就可以记得一生
韩剧看了一生就只记得一部

日剧1%是垃圾99%是精品
韩剧1%是精品99%是垃圾

可以什么都不想地看韩剧
却不能什么都不想地看日剧

想变白痴的时候看韩剧
想振作的时候看日剧

同是得绝症的女孩
日剧里面的人会用坚强的微笑迎接每一天，努力的活着，而我在电脑前流泪感动
韩剧里面的人则是有留不完的眼泪，我却在电视面前郁闷怎么还没死啊

--adapted from another blog

Now that boss is not ard, like really rotting in the office with nth much to do...

BORED...!
:(:(

was readin thru jeanette's blog just now.
start realising that it's so easy to take people for granted
and so hard to learn to appreciate those who really care.

feel that i can nv appreciate mum enough.
it's so easy for me to do something special for friends
but i've nv done special stuffs for mum.
ordinary things only
like buying cakes on mothers' days, her birthdays, treating her to a meal (which she insist on eating in kopitiam instead of restaurant) when i receive my salary.
no, i've nv bought her any decent clothes, accessories.
nv cooked for her nor baked her cookies,
nv arranged her photos nor remembered to do the stuffs she asked me to.
nv even written a birthday card for her.
only sewn her a pillow years back with she wrapped up in a transparent wrapper and put it in a prominent corner in her room.
haiZ...
what a terrible daughter...

to cherlynn ng.. i am in no shoes to complain because i am in no way better.

there are so many movies i want to catch!!

but maybe not this week since we're getting results on fri and i would have no mood to watch movies thereafter.

and yes, if anyone's interested to watch:

babel (would it still be nshowing next week?)
2 letter from iwo jima
just follow law
dream girls

pls msg me. i'm available on weekday nights ONLY.

2 more weeks of work and it'd be my break!! YEH!!
it's a experience working here lah,
but to stay put in admin for life??
not quite my idea of a job i can be passionate abt.
in the company the person with the most zeal and zest i have to say,
it's Boss.
he go for fishing trip a few days only,
and the office is so quiet already without him calling every half an hour to give me new task.
and he's got fantestic memory, very meticulous at the same time.
yah, he's quite a nice person actually.
although his presence sometimes bring me abit of stress.
lol...

2 more weeks to go yeh!! and i'm off to learn driving. :)

heard there's press release that a level results is going to release this coming fri.

man... totally dread it.

so afraid i'd be sulking all day after that.

owell... start planning for the journey ahead....

what is it like to be going out with someone u haven't seen for quite some time yet all she talks about is another person.
punctuating every single sentance with that person.
begining and ending off every conversation with that person.
recounting every single incident and moments with that person.
shopping with u for that person.
treating u with something but buying thrice that amt she treats u for that person.
asking u to help carry out her plans for that person.
haiZ....
i dun dig..
can it not be just my short little not-too-long few hours alone with u in weeks and not my time with u AND that person?

i just want some time alone with u
it wasn't so hard in the past.
it's so hard now.
and everything u've said to me b4,
u said it to me AGAIN
just that it's been changed to THAT Person's name.

frustrated and pissed.

birthday present for cherlynn, inspired by joanne and jeannette's scapebook for bernice.

the best is always for someone else.

at least that's how i felt after having done 4 scapebooks to various who mattered to me at some point of time in my life.

when is it going to be someone giving their best to me?

haha... sounds familiar lzt? (when is it going to be my turn? )

that's probably how God felt, giving his best to me yet having to bear with my tons of excuses for being too busy for prayer, for cell outing, blah blah.

that's probably how mum felt, preparing lunch for me everyday and bringing it to my work place 5 days a week be it rain or shine.

i suppose they are not frustrated, nor disappointed, nor expecting me to reciprocate in any way,

because they loved me unconditionally. thus, despite me being the way i am, they loved me for who i am and not who they wished i could be.

it's selfish of me to wish for appreciation of any form. cos genuine love and giving doesn't involve any form of reciprocation.

That, i think i have so much to learn from jeannette and joanne. :)

back to work again at the office~!

new year this year is kindda... different.
cos it's my first chinese new year when i recive ang bao from boss.
lol...
and 2 summore.
and my collegue also gave me an angbao.
haha... it's good to be a teen.
but crossing over to the adult world soon- dread.
oh, and receiving angpows from working relations is a privilege teaching tuition dun enjoy.
heh... which tuitee will give angpow to tutor??

got a new haircuT
look toot and ugly in it :(

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i've got no idea whether sch is better or work is better.
despite utterly disliking homework, tests and As,
being a student allows me to see my pals daily, chat with them and joke around.
working allows me to slp early without having to worry about uncompleted homework or unstudied tests, but keeping in contact with friends seems so tough.
i haven't seen cher in ages, and zt kindda evaporated into the thin air,
peI and ser, and ppl who used to blog frequently seldom update their blogs now.
my days are filled with work,
working on monday to fridays, teaching on sat and church on sun,
the cycle just repeats itself...

... oh, and this morning i was taking bus 22 on my way to work.
boarded the bus which was quite packed,
managed to get a seat and was sms-ing aly
when the guy next to me suddenly turned to me and asked,
"going to work?" which gave me a shock of my life and left me stunned...
"eh.... yah.."
"oh, i'm your neighbour who lives opposite you"
hahaha.... to think he lives beside me for 10 years and i couldn't even recognise him!
i was so embarassed.
he continued to say that he thought he might have recognised the wong person.
had a hearty chat.
and actually found out that his house's dog was a gift from his sister's boyfriend.
lol...
well, i could only recognise his mum and dad but not the siblings.
i suppose i'm probably not the only one who noe not who's living next to me
and their names
and their age
and their qualifications.
and their family members..
left me pondering...
when i lived in bedok reservoir, i knew my neighbours well,
be it who lives in which unit, how many kids,
their names and even often frequent their house.
guess for me, the older i grew, the colder i've become.