The Part of You That No One Sees

You are balanced, peaceful, and sincere. You're the type of person who goes along to get along. And you're definitely afraid of rocking the boat. Underneath it all, you fear your world falling apart. You'll put up with a situation that you don't like in fear of changing it. Disruptive and forceful people intimidate you - and sometimes exploit you.

What's" the Part of You That No One Sees?

总是很矛盾，
每当自己在忙的时候，
就会希望有多一些空档，
可以坐下来喝杯茶，
记录一下发生的事情以及感想。
可是每当真的有这种闲暇时间时，
反而没有心情去写。

星期六 - 白力果上课

好恐怖，又要作战了。
七早八早到白力果报道，

第一堂课是代课，老板洪老师的P2班。
由于隔天是父亲节，
小朋友都得写下自己想要对爸爸说的话，
然后贴在课室外面的墙上。
上课前
洪老师问：“你跟你父亲的关系因该很不错吧？”
我心里马上就冒出了一句：“才怪！”但是当然没有说出来啦！

我觉得自己的爸爸好烂！比别人的烂。
哪有爸爸即使顺路也不要顺便接送女儿。
哪有爸爸会为了打麻将而让出水豆的8岁女儿自己搭车回家。
哪有爸爸会因为女儿特地在他生日的时候买了一个$32的心形蛋糕而骂她是个自私的人，买蛋糕也不先打回家看看家里人是否已经买了蛋糕。
哪有爸爸会因为自己女儿开始做工每月赚区区$1000还得自己解决伙食费和交通费而要求她每月给$200的家用。
哪有爸爸会要把钱财算得清清楚楚，死命地要女儿申请自己的电话户口。
烂爸爸就是烂爸爸。

唉。。。
过后洪老师还对小朋友说：“有个小朋友写的字条很他别，他写：‘亲爱的爸爸，谢谢你给我一个幸福的家’，老师看了觉得很感动。”

为什么我没有这样的爸爸？？！！

午餐过后是P1的班，
我让JM写他要对爸爸说的话，
他的亮色突然沉了下来。
我觉得不大对劲，想说他因该是在生爸爸的气，所以不放弃试着让他写。
他不睬我。。。

之后郭老师进来了，让他写字条，
JM很不开心，不肯写有不肯说话。
郭老师就问：“JM,你在生爸爸的气？”
静
“爸爸是不是不能陪你”。
静
“爸爸是不是在国外？”
静
“Is your father abroad"
静
“爸爸是不是不跟你住在一起"
点头
“JM 没关系，你可以把字条写个老师。”

我有点惊讶，他还那么小，父母就离婚了。
他还那么小，就懂得怎么去讨厌。

真为自己的愚顽感到惭愧，
之前还不停地"逼”他写纸条，
郭老师一进来三两句就问出了一个所以然。

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howboyishorgirlishareyouquiz/">How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Hahah... Lim Zhanting, this the the after effect of not listening to u confuse my identity for a long period of time.

15 mins to lunch.

:( Gotta do inbound calls today. NO FUN!!!!

昨晚在床上，精神慎紧张得无法入眠，
脑子里闪过未完成的一百零一件琐碎恼人的小事。
虽是小事，但也就这种恼人的小事才最折腾。
所以，我想我会在下个星期一辞职，然后还得要等一两个星期才能正式离开。

Accomplish more by doing less.
虽然是断一条了经济来源，
但至少无需一直被内疚与无奈的情绪困扰。
这样我可以有更多时间去做我该做的事，
我想做的事
和我打算做的事。

辞职 是件好事。

i always have a million and one things running on my mind that i remain restless and confused almost 99% of the time i'm awake. either i'm drifting off to the 105th uncompleted tasking on my mind while trying to complete the 104th - eg thinking of banking in a cheque after calling XXX up to inform her she has to do YYY before ZZZ days while trying to pretend listening to QQQ talk about how work sucks. multi tasing has really taken its toil on me and at the end of the day i think nothing much is accomplished.

So now. i've decided to call an end to all the multitasking and start sitting down doing one thing at a time. WHEW!

so my immediate stress for tml and sat to going to berries. Well, sometimes it's really not the kids but the adults and myself. I've started developing this kindda phobia. Phobia of teaching. I dread the weekends more than the arrival of Mondays. Been working in Berries for almost half year since January. Undeniably i've learnt alot. but i feel pressurised at the same time. I can't live up to their expectations - both the parents and the boss. Inconsistant. One week i tell a fabulous story, the next week it's so LOUSY. it's a up and down graph. One week, i seem to have assured the boss that i can take on a class, then the next i ruined all the previous impressions and had him sigh-ing all over and exasperated. one week i can sense that 他在栽培我， the next week his expressions tell me that 朽木不可雕也！ and in a months' time i'm taking on the class. i dunno if i can make the mark. 我需要变得更加沉着稳重。我总是表现的慌慌张张，站不稳，靠不住似的。。。

每次上课都好像上考场。
乐多。苦也不少。
需要调整心态。

林展廷！！ 生日快乐。 如果苏打绿明年多了一个姓林的成员，无不会感到讶异。 不过回头想想，你好象得先当好几年的老师哦~