Faith is Forsaking All, I Thrust Him

Have got a new haircut!hm... makes me look more "feminine" i suppose. lolx.... kindda became the talk of tthe day mainly due to the publicity of zt and gang. but i like th change nevertheless. :)

Mum cooked nasi lemak today. sooOooo delicious.
went shopping with mum and mei and tiong ba. hmm... let me do a little introduction on this mysterious "tiong ba" hee... he's actually my mum's partner lah, i come from a divorced family, if u don't already know. regarding the derivation of his name, it's a long story, to cut it short, tiong ba is actually derived from the place tiong bahru. lol.

yah.. just wanna do a little updating on how my sis never fail to bring y self esteem down. lolx... but she's still my cute little sis nevertheless. was telling her i intend to go for a haircut and ask the hairdresser cut my hair such that i'd still look like a girl. my sis told me that my attempt would be in vain, the hairdresser would just tell me that what i needed is not a short girl-ly haircut, but to change my face. -_-"

and mummy bought me a bottle of shampoo for oily hair. my hair is always oily, and the condition is esspecially bad if i wash then on alternate days, so i have to wash them daily. and my sis would always tease me saying the oil accumulated is enough for cooking. owell...

and to my surprise, xulaoshi sms-ed to ask my how come onli 3 ppl in the class handed in the compo. at first i really thought he was fuming ( even though it seems almost impossible for someone with such mild temper to fume). but den later he sent another sms to say: please do not feel that i'm reprimanding you, have a pleasant weekend. lolx..... but i think i deserved to be reprimanded. lazy me, not doing my duties..

yah... end here. will keep updating, not like zhanting and nyap, totally abandoned their blogs le..

i've dropped geog!!! i'm so HAPPY!!!! :D

I'm supposed to have completed my geog essay and LEP essay by now, according to the timetable i've planned, but apparently, being an effcient slacker, i've never failed to get distracted by TV and my cosy bed. The purpose of my coming online is to print geog notes and download ppt slides, but the tjc webbie clashed again, for the dunno how many time this month le. To think i was commenting on how effcient e learning was at the beginning of the year. so i spent the past one hour literally reading blogs, looking at photos posted online, wasting my time away. time and tide waits for no man. nor woman. nor girl. nor me.
At least i've managed to file my notes properly and the notes stacked up on my table half a metre in height. i'm suppose to digest them in 3 weeks' time. but i doubt my brain have so much hydrochloric acid.

the crippling fear...

fear dun equal phobia right?
fear steps in when i know i'm doing something wrong, something i'm not supposed to do.
fear creeps in when i use a lie to cover another, when i feel obliged to do something.
fear creeps in when i cant live up to people's expectations, when i cant meet their expectation in due time.
fear creeps in when i feel others' displeasure
fear grips me when i try to accomplish my duties but fails

In fear, i cant see God.