the crippling fear...

fear dun equal phobia right?
fear steps in when i know i'm doing something wrong, something i'm not supposed to do.
fear creeps in when i use a lie to cover another, when i feel obliged to do something.
fear creeps in when i cant live up to people's expectations, when i cant meet their expectation in due time.
fear creeps in when i feel others' displeasure
fear grips me when i try to accomplish my duties but fails

In fear, i cant see God.