i always have a million and one things running on my mind that i remain restless and confused almost 99% of the time i'm awake. either i'm drifting off to the 105th uncompleted tasking on my mind while trying to complete the 104th - eg thinking of banking in a cheque after calling XXX up to inform her she has to do YYY before ZZZ days while trying to pretend listening to QQQ talk about how work sucks. multi tasing has really taken its toil on me and at the end of the day i think nothing much is accomplished.

So now. i've decided to call an end to all the multitasking and start sitting down doing one thing at a time. WHEW!

so my immediate stress for tml and sat to going to berries. Well, sometimes it's really not the kids but the adults and myself. I've started developing this kindda phobia. Phobia of teaching. I dread the weekends more than the arrival of Mondays. Been working in Berries for almost half year since January. Undeniably i've learnt alot. but i feel pressurised at the same time. I can't live up to their expectations - both the parents and the boss. Inconsistant. One week i tell a fabulous story, the next week it's so LOUSY. it's a up and down graph. One week, i seem to have assured the boss that i can take on a class, then the next i ruined all the previous impressions and had him sigh-ing all over and exasperated. one week i can sense that 他在栽培我， the next week his expressions tell me that 朽木不可雕也！ and in a months' time i'm taking on the class. i dunno if i can make the mark. 我需要变得更加沉着稳重。我总是表现的慌慌张张，站不稳，靠不住似的。。。

每次上课都好像上考场。
乐多。苦也不少。
需要调整心态。