the human brain is truely amazing.

we can have a hundred and one thought flooding through, every single second when we're on the bus, walking along the streets, shopping, reading a book even.Yet once we sit down determined to get it sort out on blogger,(like i'm doing now)WHOOSH! They're all gone.

It's really nice to be kept busy this whole week despite the holidays.

It made me feel important.

I've always been silly back when i was a teenage girl,(not that i'm an old matron now)
thinking how the world MIGHT revolve around me.
Now i know the simple truth, encapsulated in a phrase i once told a friend:
没有谁会因为没有谁而活不下去。
Sounds sadistic but isn't that what life is all about?
On the other hand, we need people.
Not for the long term, but for the here and now.
(oH, u can criticise my materialistic, selfish mentality, but human relationship is always about reciprocity.
U give, and u made sure the other party return ur favour.
Subtly, insidious, but surely.)
I must have been a marxist in my previous life - everything works on the basis of exploitation and self interest.
Yah, for here and now.
Well, to illustrate my example, we shall look at an antedote:
A and B are friends. A is in school alone, B with a BF.
A wished she could spend some time with B and figures that B can have the ton of time with her BF after she left.
B decided she wanted to return to her BF and left A alone.
Anyhow, A also refuses to discuss a common topic deemed impt to B at that point of time.
A being god damn sensitive, is hurt, stayed in school and mocked at herself.
The next time they went out, B did the same to A.
(ok i noe this is a confusing eg. forget it)
To drive home the point, friends are important.
Only for the here and now.
Only when one needs company. Only wheb they can exploit each other's company. Imagine if B was alone just like A, she wouldn't have left her in the lurch.
Looking at my self profess brillant thesis,
maybe i should consider major in psychology too. haha...

Back to this week...

Today - a doctor's inaccrate dignosis can trigger a chain of reaction.

Rah... When i had my medical checkup at UHWC, i've nv imagined that it's going to offset a chain of unwelcomed medical visits that's going to burn a hole in my pocket!!
Fisrt it's UWHC, then the doctor made me visit the polyclinic.
I should have headed straight to the hosipital instead.
C'mon, which polyclinic doctor would dare challenge NUS medical staff's suspicious of me having a heart murmur and put the patient's health at risk?
So, i was directed to see a cardiologist (WOW... what a big name for heart specialist).
The cardiologist was young and VERY handsome.
He was friendly. Chat me up, about Uni stuff (Well, there isn't much u can talk about with a 20 year old girl) so that i won't get nervous when he listens to my heartbeat.
He's skillful.
I never knew doctors has to be good conversationalist, until today.
Haha...
And it was a chop chop session, with him scribbling alot of information.
I wonder how many patients he has to see a day.
Anyway... the session was damn expensive.
$29.90 and i have to make 2 trips back.
My heart seems normal from the way he reacts, but i had to come back to do some echo test and to see my hearts vavles.
Nth serious at all.
Wa lau, is that how one doctor creates jobs for other doctors and propel the economy?
Despite him being VERY young and handsome, i wouldn't pay another 29.90 to ogle at him. RAH...

Yesterday - MAD Forest

Another english production i don't quite understand.
It was long. Two and a half hours.
About the romanian revolution which took place in 1989,where 1104 pple died.
All this while, i have been watching plays, films, reading books about revolution, wars, deaths etc etc. but like stalin phrased it -
Death of a person is a tragedy, death of a population is a statistic. Gosh... i think i've been desensitised too.
I was even thinking... 1104, that pales in comparison with the massacre of Nanking where an an estimated of 200,000 died.
Or any historical ancient chinese wars where millions perished.
I'm turning into a cold blooded moroon.
Nevertheless,i've taken back somthing.
The vivid imprint of the picture outside the theatre.
The one with bodies in makeshift coffins, aligned neatly in rows and columns.
It was impactful.

Yesterday - Guangfeng and Wenjie

We've known each other for ages but it's the first time ever that the three of us met up with just the three of us. :)
I realised that there're actually many secrets which we're keeping for each other. It's always heartwarming to meet up.
With old friends.
Just a meal or a movie.
More than enough to satisfy.

The day before yesterday - step mum's canteen

I am smart. I think i am.

Sometimes when u are an unfeeling person who don't seem to care about how everyone else passes their day, they assumed that u don't care.
What they know not is, they're actually pepertually popping up in my head.
No wonder loving somebody takes more than the thoughts.
It takes actions and words. (most of the time, money too. lol...)

I went to my stepmom's canteen to help out.
Out of the blue.
My initiation.
Haha... and that made her happy for the whole day.
Despite it being a simple gesture.
U see, u've got to be a devil for the year and play angel once in a while.
And u'd be forgiven of all the previous sins committed.

That's why i concluded i'm smart.

The day before the day before yesterday - lunch with emilie

a randamn day. random days spell emilie.

she makes my random day even more random. hahahahahha....

this section is a tribute for u. emilie. :P

i think it was interesting when we we eating lunch and talked about travelling and love.

韵：我在想象在欧洲旅游，在间浪漫的咖啡厅坐下，读本爱情小说。可能还会有艳遇！

涵：艳遇！？？ 你是在说邂逅吧！

糟糕，措辞不当。

韵：哦。邂逅。然后正在我抬头凝望前方，一个高挑的身影——

涵：高挑？

韵：soly. 一个壮硕的身影往我方向风度翩翩地走来。他有浓眉大眼——

涵：高挺的鼻子 ——

韵：而且要有点书卷气！不是冬天也没下雪。是秋天。他身穿有领衬衫，套着一件无袖毛衣——

涵：跟我想象的不一样！我想的他穿西装——

韵：西装？ 一点都不浪漫！

涵：那种很像military wear 的。

韵：（恍然大悟）噢！那种上海滩穿的，长长的是吗？

涵：yah lah!然后他走向她——

韵：等一下——（疯狂的笑）像flasher 那般的剥开他的外套！！！

涵：里面有穿衣服。

okok... we talked rubbish all the while. and it's not hard to see why we haven become reknowned script writer up til now. lol...