a sudden urge to post a long entry. wonder if it'd last.

anyway this few weeks really plagued with quite alot of things to do.

on mr tong:
everytime i have to see him, i freak out. since i have to make annoucement on wed, cant avoid seeing him, was so nervous i praticed the announcement with cuishan upteem times before entering his room. and he was in a good mood today, listening to "童话",weird.. haha... he even asked us whether we have minus one track of 童话。 i told him can download but illegally. and he says not to do it. lol... and so i noticed he's a christian cos i saw a devotion book and a christianiy related book which its title i've forgotten.

on mr veera:
went to listen to his talk at lt2 today. as usual, his talks set us in deep tots. and Hotel Rwanda is an awesome movie~ go watch it if u haven't.

on LEP scholarship:
i've recieved a paper from penglaoshi informing me that the LEP scholarship has been renewed CONDITIONALLY. penglaoshi told me to start working hard. yes i have to and i need to. haiz.... haha... i'm the only one in the class to receive that paper cos the rest are renewed automatically. i am one of the worst LEP scholarships in terms of results. thanks for teachers who have put in positive comments(hopefully), so that i have one more chance. which really lead me to my next point.

on no time to study:
the timtable is so sparse. haiz... i only have fri when i can go home early, and gotta stay back in sch for cca 3 times a week... yeh, no doubt it's fun lah. budden this year odd to be a mugging year right? i feel so distracted.

on stress:
daddy actually scare me with a heavy financial responsibilit, saying his CPF going to dry out in 1-2 years time, and once i graduate from Uni, i have to start paying for the house's loan of $1500 month in cash. OMG. i was like thinking in my heart:"why are u saying this to me now?" i dun even know if i can get a schlorship for Uni and i don't even know if i have to get loans for higher education and pay for it once i graduate. i dun even know if i would have the financial capabilities to support 4 parents. yah.. i am really using alot of money for my education and food and shelter. haiz... i am a selfish kid. because at that point i thought i felt daddy pushing all the responsiblities wholesale to me immediately after i graduate. dunno if he had even tot of my uni education. haiz...
mummy, in contrast, told me before that if daddy really cant afford to let u go Uni, she will support my education. so touched.... and she always say things like, next time when i grow up, dun nid to give her alot of money, just give her and uncle $200 to $300, enough for food can le. haiz... mummy and daddy are really worlds apart. but den again. daddy really have supported me all these years lah, and spent alot of $.
mummy and daddy always say different things. i cant hep but compare. haha... sometimes i even wonder if daddy love me more or love money more.
afterall, this is a pragmatic society where money is all it matters. the cost of living here is so high.

on academic stress:
i am so way behind. haiz...

on luyuan:
the tickets should be out soon, pls support. :)