i've always believed that guys who are older exudes charm and charisma. they are witty and mature, and see things from a different light. i'm still a little girl at heart i suppose, one who needs a figure to stand in awe of, to worship and to admire. that's probably why i'm attracted to older guys.

cant help but mull over what charlene said the other day. that older guys are people u can talk abt fluffy things with, probably joke around, talk about dreams and future yadah yadah, but not people who'd take u seriously because they think u're still a little girl, someone who noes not what reality is all about, who's cooked up in a naive innocent simplistic world. well, there's a grain of truth in it i must admit. This guy, he keeps me in awe of his wits and sometimes wisdom. and at times i wished my company would have made his day a little brighter, but i guess it's the other way round. haha... he has this outward optimism which fails to conceal his inward bitterness. he makes me laugh with a simple comment, a joke or a recount of any incident. but at times i feel so insignificant opposite him. i cant talk with sense or wisdom. he cant be discussing his interests with me cos i noe nuts abt them. that makes me feel small and my company so unneccessary.

owell, it was never meant to be...



This is where a run to when i'm utterly depress. and somehow i know no matter how bad the situation is or how torn apart i am from the storms, there's always this one person who'd mend my heart.