Your mind is never at rest.You are continually striving to influence all those about you. You have some excellent ideas but you persist in trying to persuade others just how great your ideas really are. Maybe you are trying too hard. Take it easy - remember, 'Everything comes to those who wait'.
You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.
All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!
Got this test from chaokiat's blog, and i tot it's speaking to me.
i'm always going thru emotional roller coaster. Well, my being a worrywart, nervous freak and sensitive idiot doesn't help.
things change, people move on, but i've choosen to remain stagnent. to refuse to dwell on the past nor embace the future to come.
too tired of strained relationships. work is a channel of escape though. working OTs mean i dun have to face my parents. for they've slept when i reach home, and they're out before i wake up. i tot i wasn't loved. and our relationships is one built on financial gains, on authority, not love. can't help but feel that they're always out to exploit me, to make sure that i dun have any extra savings, to keep a close watch on my earnings and spendings. i so hate the feeling of being tighted down, of being burdened to contribute to family income - of which a large proportion probably goes to their luxurious leisure spendings such as buying toto, 4D and gambling them away on the majong table. i hate myself for demeaning them, but the more i tot about this, the more i feel insecured leaving my hard earned money in their hands. the more i think of it the more i detest talking to them, sharing with them, eating the food they cook or living under the same roof. they always threaten me of moving out to live with my mum whenever we start qurreling. as much as i wished to, i know by doing so, it's only going to make thigs worse. they might even disown me for owning my mum.
yep tired of strained r/s with friends too. it obviously doesn't feel good to know that u're already outta their life. u're no longer precious in their eyes. they dun need u to interfere. they dun have to depend on u any longer when u begin to realise u've sacrificed so much time for them in the past and u start becoming dependant on them. whatever.
and tired of strained relationship with God too.
everythings working out, somehow, just not in the way i wish they would. it's high time i grow up, accept this changes and build new relationships.
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