It's been ages since i last updated. Whew.. . Leading a busy and hectic life, i dun know why i am so busy. Yet, at the same time, it's relaxing too, cos i'm doing things that i enjoy... learning guitar, paixi-ing, telling story to the kids at berries, meeting up with friends...

Where should i start? maybe from my current mood ba.. it's probably going to get a little bit heavy here.

The Big Talk about Sincerity.

I tink it's so damn hard to treat everyone with sincerity, of course i'm not advocating hipocracy here. i was just reflecting on some things and i must admit with utter disappointment and shame that yes, i'm a very insincere person. But sometimes i feel that there are many insincere people around me too. Insincere when they are irresponisible. What's sincerity really? I interprete it as making things which are important to your loved ones important to you too. It's also looking into the minute details.

How should i put it... i dunno. it's about rehearsing my story and preparing the lessons properly before meeting the kids which i didn't do....

aiya... i dunno what i'm driving at... maybe i can quote some example...

Peiwen, she never fail to reach the school before everyone does and leave after she's inspected every corners to make sure everything's in place ( although this should have been my job).

Guanhua, he actually gave us free guitar lessons out of his genunine passion for music.

Yangyi, he actually look into what went wrong (regarding customer's feedback), walking the extra mile.

Andrew, he is the only one who always acknowledge an sms sent to him.

i think sometimes i am pissed of by myself for being 粗枝大叶。i overlook details. i break promises. loads of them. i lie. i procrastinate.

and sometimes i am pissed off by people who promise me they will call be back but they dun. who promised they'd help me out but forget all about it. and i am pissed of at myself for being pissed of at them because i am one of these people.

sometimes i am pissed at people for making me look bad. it's just another excuse, i should have cared more and do things by myself. i should have called to confirm, to make sure that things are done. and that if they are done, they're properly done. i shouldn't assume and expect. i shouldn't push the responsibilities. suan le. everyone's too busy with their own life to care about other lives. what ever.

Like what my dad always say, i have poor attitude and like to do things last minute. yes. i have poor altitude, likes to do things last minute, and is unworthy of anyone being sincere to me.

aiya... i think i better go slp, gotta reach berries by 8.30 tml morning. tml's going to be a long busy tiring day.

thanks nyap, for helping me buy the tickets. sorrie that it was so last minute, as usual.