my current mood is turdish.

I feel quite helpless because there are two collegues on my team who haven received their NUS acceptance confirmation. The mood in the office is pretty suppressing. A part of me wished i'm in their shoes so i can understand their anxiety, yet a part of me is relieved that i dun have to undergo all these unneccessary stress and worries. Mind, i think i am very fortunate. Indeed i am. I've always thought that entering Uni shouldn't be so tough a thing, since everyone says "get CCC can enter liao!" but looks like it isn't the case, esspecially so when this year is the dragon year. I should learn to count my blessings. Just hope that they get their reply quickly and the office can be back to its cheerie mood.

On a lighter note,

Ate at the soup spoon yesterday with cherlynn Ng. and the GSS started!! but i haven seen anything i fancy yet.

Yesterday at soup spoon my mind kidda drifted back to when i was in my sec school days. these days i have been pretty bitter with myself for always being the sacrifice of "opportinity cost", meaning - i'm always "the next best alternative", or simply put "second best". But then, i'm kindda happy yesterday when i assure myself that yes, i do have, moments that i shine too. I am really proud of myself when during one of the meetings when one of the juniors said that "of all the cds farewell parties i've attended, i think the best was the year when we had to pull double sided tapes from the air con hall floor" (which is the year when my batch was the organising year and i am in charge of publicity!) hahaha... and i was really happy when i got my sec 4s prelims clit results and i topped the class. And as i was recalling all these, i was glad that i had this one mentor who gave me the opportunities and platform to shine, maybe not brightly, nor glamourously, but sufficient to erase my doubts and bitterness i suppose.

And it just happened that she msged me yesterday about a drama workshop. thanks! for updating me with all the activities/seminars/talks/news etc etc which would benifit me, even though i've graduated for quite some time. :) :) Thanks for talking to me as if we were friends and not with an air of seniority. :) haha... and i was just thinking... did u still have the handphone pouch i knited?? lol... i haven knitted anything since then. And i thought i did a pretty good job!! :P

Oh, and last night talked with audrey which left me with some deep thoughts.. Shall learn to appreciate all te alumnis who went all the extra miles abit more! YUP!!! JIAYOU everyone!!!!!