rant. and let my anger evaporate...

somtimes i feel like a piece or turd. (turd = shit)
thanks, i'm one of the least of the alumnis. trying to do sth. shit!
frens... they are nice ppl, too scared to reject me straight in my face.
yah, some are genuninely tight on their financials, i understand... but others i spent half hr calling, and felt abit... tricked? if XX go i will go, i call XX, if YY goes i will go.... the list goes on... ZZ go i'll go. argg.... in the end? well YY says ok i go then the rest cant go. argg...

i was recalling what llb used to tell me. yah, then i tot she really over estimate me. and i'm actually some worthless turd. ha. i've no passion in drama. no. and i ain't some angel or goodie she tot/nv tot i was. when i look at guangfeng, when i look at jodi, when i look at wenjie, i just feel more and more like a TURD. i wasn't even trying to be a nice smelling turd.

rant on
piece of turd.